I’ve been off the mission field for three weeks now and
just transitioning into what God has for me here in Buffalo. It has been a
tough transition leaving parts of my heart in India and all over the United
States where my girls are. Transitions are usually hard for me but this one has
been even harder than normal knowing that I only have a short window before I
head to Spain to spend with my family and friends. My heart knows that this is
what God has ordered my steps to do but change is always hard- especially quick
change.
God has made it very clear that this short season at home
is to be one of rest- something that I have learned very quickly is tough for
me. It’s difficult not being able to serve in the same capacity here at home
while I wait. In the past two days I decided to stop being so stubborn and just
bend to resting – and I can’t even begin to tell you how full my heart has been
today. I went on a run with Jesus today as the sun was setting (one of those
duke it out and surrender type of runs) and as I protested to God about not
feeling used here and not knowing where the money for Spain would come from, He
stopped me and reminded me of why I’m doing all this.
He brought the parable of the man who found the treasure
in the field, hid the treasure, and sold all he had to buy that field to the
forefront of my mind. (Matthew 13) I’ve read this parable probably a hundred
times over, but Jesus struck my heart differently when I read it again. That
man decided to give up everything- his rights to his next meal, to making a
living, to comfort and stability, and most importantly to his fears of the
future because he knew that the treasure was immeasurably valuable to him. I stood in the field next to my house, looking
at the sunset as I knew Jesus was screaming to me- Is the kingdom so
immeasurably valuable to you that you will trade your fears of your whole
future for it?
I was quickly on my knees bawling and thanking God for
the opportunity to even know the depths of what that treasure is and the having
the honor of giving up all I have to further His kingdom. So I’m packing up and selling my car and most of my things and
buying my plane ticket to Spain knowing I have no back-up plan, no fluffy savings
account to buy back my things if it doesn’t work out. I just fully know the
immeasurable treasure that I’ve found- and I’m ready to go share the same thing
with the nations.
So on this journey- Spain is next. I am going to a
missions training school called G42 leadership academy that will train and
equip me for long term missions as I attend class, do missions, eat, and do
life with missionaries who have been doing it their whole lives. If you want to be a part of this journey and support
what God is doing you can give online at http://www.g42leadershipacademy.org/donate
with my name under the intern section or you can send checks to me personally.
(get ahold of me for my address) Thanks for the prayers and support- they are
crucial to the plans God has for me.
