It is absolutely crazy how much changes in a year. I went from passionless and selfish living to letting God give me purpose, passion, and LIFE. You see ever since God set me apart in my mother’s womb he hasn’t stopped pursuing my heart, it was me that wasn’t letting God change me.
I was living blind much like Saul did. In Acts chapter 9, God makes Saul aware that he is blind by actually blinding him. God told him to go to Damascus where there is a man waiting there to heal his blindness. Much like Saul, God showed me how blind I was and told me to go to Guatemala where there was freedom and healing for me. Acts 9:8 says “Saul got up from the ground, but when he opened his eyes he could see nothing. So THEY led him by the hand into Damascus.” Saul heard God’s voice telling him to go where healing was waiting but he still had to have others lead him there. I knew God wanted me in Guatemala but I still had to have others lead me there. God provided people in my life to push and encourage me there, without which I may not have gone.
“Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said “Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who has appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, and after taking some food, he regained his strength.” Acts 9:17-19 It took Saul realizing his blindness to see God’s power and call on his life, and in the same way it took God bringing me to Guatemala to see how blindly I really was living. God used an incredibly anointed body of Christ, being my team to heal me.
Acts 9:20 says “At once, he began to preach in the synagogues that Jesus is the Son of God. “ Immediately after Saul was healed he began to live out his new found faith. From this point on in Acts Paul lives radically for his calling from Christ and many are added to the church because of it. The past year of my life has been a journey, one where God is daily making me more in his likeness and equipping me for the calling he has on my life. Many people have told me that I am just a completely different person from who I was before I left, and I am because God has healed my blindness and filled me with more of his Holy Spirit. I am new and I am not turning back. In Guatemala, we would sing the song “I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back” with many of the orphans and children we loved on and I had no idea that God was engraving that in my heart.
In just two short months I will be whole-heartedly following God’s calling for me to lead a group of college girls into the brothels and bars of Thailand, to storm the gates of hell. God has given me the opportunity to pour into girls not only stuck in trafficking but also my college girls that may be stuck where I was. "Freely you have received, freely give" Matthew 10:8 As I sit here and type this, I have gotten a chance to reflect on all God has done in my life the past year, his grace for each step along the way, and the miracle he has performed on my life. Lord, you are faithful and I will follow you until the very end.
El decidido seguir a Cristo
No vuelvo atras
No vuelvo atras
