Today God was romancing my heart and I can honestly say that
being pursued by God is far greater than any words that I can type on a page. There
I sat on the beach looking out on the mountains and shores of God’s masterpiece here in Thailand and God
sat next to me and took my breath away. If you have ever been pursued by
someone you know the butterfly feeling that accompanies knowing someone values
you enough to give you their full attention. Well, this surpassed that feeling
when I realized that the creator of the universe, the one who has given me
redemption and brought me to this place in my life wanted to just sit and make
me fall in a deeper love with him. As I listened to worship music and looked
out at his creation, I couldn’t help but to have a cheek to cheek smile, to
blush, and for my toes to curl. I then realized that my abba was romancing me,
he was giving me his full attention and showing me how much he truly loved me. Last
week, I got the opportunity to watch God romance one of the bar girls that God
has given me such a love and heart for.
B- has been told all her life that love means submitting to
abuse, and being bought every night. In
one conversation I had with her she had excitement on her face as she explained
to me in broken English that she only had to be bought once that night because
a man was paying 10,000 Baht for her. She was happy that a man was buying her
for 300 dollars, and after I heard those words come out of her mouth my heart
sank to the ground. How could you put a
price on someone? How could you pay to take away a piece of a woman that God is
so jealous for? I left that night heartbroken for B- knowing that God’s heart
was hurting too.
Last week was B-‘s birthday so I decided to buy her a
necklace and a couple of my teammates and I made her a card. As we walked up to
her in the bar that night, we found her in the darkest place we’ve seen her
yet. She was dancing on the bar with barely anything on her body, and her face
told us that she wanted anything but to be there. When she saw us, her face lit
up and we told her that we had a gift for her [more like yelled it- the bars
are so loud from music and chatter that it is hard to hear anything let alone communicate
with a language barrier] I lifted the necklace and card up so that she could
see what we had gotten her and her she immediately stopped dancing on the bar
and looked me straight in the eyes and started to sob. She bent over off of the
bar as we placed the necklace around her neck like she was royalty [ and in God’s
eyes she is, because He sees her future} and then she literally fell into my
arms and sobbed as she continually told us “thank you, you remember my
birthday, I love you.” I know that in that moment B- felt God’s love for her,
she may not have known what to call it but she felt God there just as much as I
did. I realized as God was romancing my heart a week later that He was
romancing hers in that moment, and for the first time ever B- felt real love,
pure love, and a true love that can only come from the Lord.
He is still pursuing B-‘s heart just as much as he is
pursuing mine, and lavishing his love over my heart to the point where my toes
curl. Its true love, I’m so sure of it.
* I took out B-'s real name for her protection :)
